Finals are over with! I think I did ok, I goofed on some questions but my final projects went fine. Well day after tomorrow Clayton and I fly back home to Wales for Christmas, can't wait. I'm in a mad dash trying to get things ready. Had my hair and nails done yesterday so I'm all pretty :)

Today I volunteered at the local museum for the Christmas crafts day, it was fun. Santa came hehe, got me all in the Christmas spirit which doesn't take that much.

Just thought I'd write a quick post to wish everyone a Merry Christmas before we left. I'm looking forward to seeing my family & friends again.

I've never done a post like this before but I just feel I want to get what I'm feeling off my mind. Since I can remember I've had a problem with my weight. I probably started putting on most of my weight by about the age of 10yrs and it's snowballed ever since. When I was young I was thin, looking at the family movies I wished my weight never changed. Now knowing that it was due to my Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. It helps that I know the reason but it doesn't make me happy. Before I met Clayton I was at my highest weight, I was determined to look good and I lost about 30lbs I was a size 14/16 when I met Clayton in person. Now sadly I've put most of it back on again.

Yesterday made me feel so fat, I went round to 5 different stores to find a winter jacket that would fit me. I'm about an XL and even those Jackets wouldn't fit me, I know some of it is down too different clothes makers but it made me feel so fat when I had to get a 2x.

As most of you all know I'm going back to Wales for Christmas, I don't know why but I feel really anxious to see my family and friends again. The main reason my weight gain, I know everyone loves me for me. But I guess I'm really ashamed that I've gotten this bad again, not that I pig out on food everyday. I do watch what eat but I'm not as strict as I should be with the diet and exercise.

I guess the never ending battle with my weight will keep going and going and going and going.