Last night was my Graduation ceremony, I was super excited & nervous all day. I had to check in at the college at around 6pm, there I met my fellow classmates and got ready for the ceremony. There was a photographer taking photos of everyone, so I had a couple of photos taken with my friends. I liked my cap and gown the color was maroon. It was so exciting I'd never done a graduation ceremony before, I know Americans graduate for high school but in the U.K we don't, we just graduate for college.

We started to line up, it was nice to be able to line up with my fellow class mates so I got to walk with them. We walked through the college to the gym where the ceremony was being held. All the faculty were around campus applauding and giving their congratulations. When we got to the gym the graduation song was playing and everyone was applauding, it made me feel very proud of myself. Once we all got to our seats we were asked to be seated. Then the president of college starts to speak. She asks graduates to rise if they had honors, I stood up with other gradates, and the audience gave applause. I stood up when she also mentioned if you were a member of the Phi Theta Kappa, and a Work Study student.

A student then sang the National anthem, and the student guest speaker gave his speech which I found very inspiring. Following that, were awards given to teachers. Then by line the graduates stood to receive their degree. I was in the last line to go up to the stage. I handed my card and my name was called with my degree and honors. I shook the presidents hand, she said congratulations and then we turned to get a photo. I walked down the stage and then back to my seat. The president then said to move our tassel to the left indicating that we were graduates, then balloons fell from the ceiling.

We walked out of the gym with the graduation song playing. On the way out all the teachers were hugging us, applauding and congratulating us. We got to the fountain outside where the reception was being held there was cake and punch, I really needed a drink at this point! I hugged all my friends, and waited for Clayton and my parents & uncle in law. Once we got together we took some photos, and then we left to celebrate with dinner.

Throughout the whole ceremony I just felt so proud and happy for myself, I have come so far in my life. I've worked so hard the last few years and I'm so glad it has it's rewards. Yesterday I definitely realised something, I want to go and get my BA not sure when or where but I will be getting it. I'm waiting for my professional photos to be emailed to me, but until then here is a photo that we took after the ceremony of Clayton and me.

I feel so depressed! I didn't get an interview with the company I missed at the career fair, I emailed back no response. Had an interview on Friday for a Web development position which was a freelance web designer. Interview went great, the job was perfect for me but I told everyone I wasn't going to get my hopes up too high. Got an email this morning, saying they have chosen someone else with more Web skills, and that's when I broke down and cried. I was secretly hoping to get this job, I just don't know what to say. The internship I was so exited about nothing came of that, turns out the company isn't in business anymore and that position looks like it was for last year. Each interview I have they say I have great interview and personal skills, it's just I don't have that much experience in the field. I know that, I'm trying to get the experience if people would give me a chance. My other fellow graduate has got a job with a printing company, and has moved away.

What am I doing wrong?? I don't know weather to keep looking, or get a job at a grocery store just to get some money in. This is the first time, since moving here that I feel I haven't got a purpose. Since I've moved it's been one ordeal after another, the wedding visa, work, school. Now that I've got my degree I just don't know what to do next.